wut's the whole purpose of summer for all high school students? to waste their lifetime everyday n chill @ home in front of the TV? or so ppl can gang up @ the theater a few trips a week n shred our money there? to get sunburn or injuries @ the Bball court? to sleep in the bed for more than 12 hr. a day? to ask their crushes out n get rejected right in their faces? to pee at the pool? to lose ur wallet @ the mall n get so depressed n go suicide? to make up new sn n prank other ppl online n eventually get blamed by their parents the next day? to get ur ass kicked? to get slapped by ur mom cuz ur not doing anything but pissing her off? ...

haha, that's not really wut happened to me, for wut an unfortunate high school student i m! u all fella white ppl or black dawgs or mexican burritos dunno how hard being azn is! we dunt get a chance to go to mall or movie or beach or see our cuties everyday, but living like hell in those SAT prep edu. centers n spending tons of money there so we can feel like our summer is productive. n wut we get from there is tons of hw n handouts to read n tons of vocab to memorize. there's one verse in chinese, "paying money to buy suffering!". isn't that quite true for me? haha!

as i'm singing "life goes on" n listening to "pimpin' around the world", i find that they both wouldn't work for azn.

Dang baby! wut else can i do? complaining online n get laughed by ppl?

nvm that's all for today! hope u'd understand my feeling!

it's an all-right day

ah man! it's another tiring n boring sunday afternoon. dunno if i should go ball or something but i was supposed to go to movie n hang out! Come on, JG n Tori! it's ur faults! jk.

ah this morning was very memorable cuz i served communion the first time n i got baptized! it's all fresh n new! the tank was nice, n the water was warm n clear. steve was cool! saying all these cool things for me n david was funny tho! well he said his grandma likes me. uh n he's the first guy i brought to my crappy house. n he just ate peanutbutter for lunch. can't imagine until i c it. n i just feel grateful that God gave me this perfect timing, which i could get baptized w/ my best friends n before jeff n steve's departure, n also... before Lolo! woohoo! somehow i always think she knows i like her. gosh maybe i have no hope on this relationship. but thank god for letting me serve communion w/ her too! feel like we're already pretty close. n the hug before she left was still mesmerizing! ahhhhhh! killing me dog! she's just the hottest girl ever dog! love it!

man, 6/5/05 is my new birthday, n the day worth remembering forever! it's right after JG's birthday too! wow this christian life is interesting! God, hope ur really there listening to me n guide me to something great!

wow! finally i've got my chem done n i can update this site. the previous week was kinda hectic! i've got a lot to tell!

first, i went to a concert called Spirit West Coast! wow it was my first concert experience in america n i find that christian life's so amazing! it's just incredible that there r so many different types of music to worship god! i love jeremy camp, relientk, barlow girls, n Kutless for show! it's hard to reminisce thoroughly when it's been a week ago, but the precious moment i had w/ david, tomoji, DG, Zac, n the lovely ladies r so unforgettable! n of course, "SHE"'s really nice! esp. she's the one who invited me to go! meanwhile we did pranks on each others like switching clothes, moving tents n luggages... altho she was a lil bit emotional n scary for a lil while. ah man! i was lost in the music n the ambience in the stadium. i was dancing crazily n ecstatically. kj 52 can rap dog!

after getting back to the normal lifestyle i find it's so defective n imperfect. studying, kicking asses at school.... ya, i was so pissed by oscar once that he talked too much sh't at me n i almost wanted to throw him some gang, but then i realize that was Satan's tempting, n decided to follow god's command. later luckily we played one on one n i kicked his ass! for show dog! then we were friends again. he's just a lil bit too FOB, n BS too much.

ah, ya, this weekend's a day to remember! i'll get baptized w/ david n then serve communion! it'll be gorgeous n ... keeping it gangsta!

well, the SAT didn't go that well. i couldn't finish it when time was up n i had 7 questions blank. dunno y god always puts me to that kinda situations. i just wanna do great academically on the subjects that i'm good at. y he always wanna joke w/ me! it ain't funny! luckily the administrator was surprisingly easy. i kept going n finished the rest, altho i messed up a lil bit. dunno, i did my best! only luck doesn't back me up! Shoot it!

uh... wut else dog? i can't remember, just know there're still a lot going on! all right i'll tell u more when i remember!

i still keep my faith straight n firm in god!

God bless america!

wut's up dogs! haven't written much these days cuz i've got a new site www.myspace.com/freekobe88 ! Go check it out dogs!

today's so tiring! i've taken 6 hrs. tests n couldn't breathe! n it meant nothing to me cuz it's a diagnostic test for my summer's SAT classes. gosh y do asians need to work so hard to get in good colleges! altho white guys tell me money's not everything, n even evil! but u know, i can't stand being poor forever dog! u know who i m! ambitious n i know i'll be somebody!

tonight's so cool! altho i didn't c my blonde lady, i still had an expectedly wonderful time at church tonight! i saw the movie White Chick! it was so hilarious n i laughed my head off the whole time! the 2 guys r hot too! i'm black tho! w/ an asian cover!

Oh, at last i'm gonna add some more! i was worrying about a solution for camp! n suddenly i found god's working in my life! just as i discussed this problem w/ David, Dilon, n Brandon. Dilon said something really awesome! "we shouldn't try to fit God in our schedule because he's already in every part of our life!" Ya right! then tonight i find seemingly my problem's solved! Wow god's really calling me! Woohoo!

that's it for today! god bless america n my friends!

Kobe

Uh! just got back from school, tired n missing my lovely lil freshman girl. just got the first state testing done n now i still feel feeble n indifferent. after that heart-attacking devastation i'm already half dead n so pissed by the world. if heaven exists i rather go there as soon as possible. but before that there's one thing i have to do first so i can satisfy---to say i like her!

wut can i do now? she has captured my heart! i'm so not myself now, n all i care n dream about's her! at the basketball court, at church, at school, on my bed... there's nowhere i dont think about her, there's no time i dunt imagine how wonderful it'd be if we would get together.

God! My dear father! ppl say as long as i keep my faith strong in u u can fulfill wut i want. well, her existence has always pulled me closer n closer to u! how wonderful she is! i pray that u can bless her forever n grant her the utter beauty forever!

Ur son,

Kobe